So I’m Laurene.
And this is part of my amazing story.
I suppose that’s why I’m writing a book called “Simply amazing”.
I was diagnosed with a serious mental health issue called borderline personality disorder (BPD). I went into a therapeutic community on the National Health Service (NHS) and came out with 100 percent recovery and inner peace.
I have been out of the community for 6 years and I have never used medication.
So if I can do it, surely it’s possible to manage a serious illness without meds?
Why am I different to so many that can’t seem to get well?
I never tell anyone not to take medication, but I am trying to show that there is another way to recover and stay well, if you are diagnosed with BPD. I don’t deal with any other mental illnesses. With BPD or complex needs disorder, you can go to the doctor and ask to be placed in a therapeutic community. The hard work starts with the sudden realisation and shock when you arrive there.
I have something powerful that keeps me strong.
This is what I believe. I’m not religious but I believe in something that is not physical and which is beyond me, like an energy or like electricity. I knew it was there in me, since the first time I sang at the age of 13 and as my voice became higher and higher, it felt like I could float out of the room.
I tap into this energy through the boundless creativity and talents I was so lucky to have been given.
But until I spent 2 years in a therapeutic community learning how to live in the world, interacting with others and tapping into what had shocked me into having continuous breakdowns, I wasn’t able to do anything with this talent. I didn’t know how to use it to help myself or other people.
So when I came out of the community in 2012, I was ready to form my theatre company, Moving On Theatre, and perform on stage instead of on the streets where I could be arrested and thrown in a cell. There, I started giving performances on the life and music of Piaf and Callas, who like myself were artists with mental health problems.
How cool it is, to be applauded for screaming, emoting and crying on the stage, and getting 5 star reviews and standing ovations.
In my show, I also talk about how lucky I am to be sane due to my love of singing and running my theatre company. I explain about the community and how it saved my life without meds.
Here is the latest testimonial for my portrayal of Callas.
"A brave, passionate, pitilessly truthful portrayal of the legendary, tragic Diva. Laurene Hope brilliantly captures the multiplicity of conflicting personalities which was the Callas phenomenon - sad, painful, saucy and occasionally hilarious this five-star show is also graced with some great operatic singing. In short, Laurene Hope IS Callas."
- Steve Gough, Bafta winning director
It has not been an easy as I would like it to have been. Despite my 5 star reviews for Piaf and amazing feedback for my shows, I have not yet performed on TV or radio. Without spending all my funds, I cannot perform in bigger theatres and TV shows don’t want to invite me to perform or talk about my recovery because I’m not famous and this can be very frustrating and stressful.
But I don’t intend to give up!
I know that I have a great success story to tell so I’m still plugging away.
Now I intend to keep on working on these talents through Moving On Theatre and my own TV station, Moving On TV, which I formed so that all artists who have experienced mental illness in some way are free to express themselves.
Once you go through the process of recovery and do what you love, you can use this experience and your commitment to achieve your goals and thrive. Performing, directing and running my theatre company are my medication and my metaphorical drugs.
You can find out more on www.movingontheatre.co.uk.
Invite me to sing, talk and play the accordion and I will show you “How to stay sane in a crazy world” without the need for meds. You can watch my film on www.movingontv.uk
Come and watch my show, “Maria” about Callas, which stars my co-stars and myself at the Buxton Festival Fringe at the Rotunda theatre on 11th-13th July at 8pm.
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I have also helped heal teeth and gum infections many times without antibiotics, as well as leg pain after a fracture, with the power of the mind and surrender, but that’s another blog, another story.
Love and blessings xx
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